March 3

So my therapist told me to keep this journal as a way to get my issues out of my head and
well
I guess to work through them in a 'productive' way. She says it's generalized anxiety caused by my arachnophobia which causes paranoia. She says it's best to start at the beginning and stop wherever I feel like stopping. Pick it up again, etc.
So I guess, here we go.
It started when I was a kid. I'd say it's about 6 or so. Typical 'burbs life. Play outside until dark with the neighbor kids etc. On a night much like any other we were running through a wooded park area a couple blocks over. I can remember it vividly. Still have nightmares about it even.
It was just about dusk, that sunset time where things just become impossible to see. We're playing tag and I'm looking for a place to hide. I go to skirt through two trees and hit a spider web. Oh god that awful feeling of the near invisible strings on my face its
I
I can't do this.



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